You want to get sober. You’ve tried quitting to no avail. The force is just too strong. You put it down, walk away, but no matter where you drop it, it finds you.
Go Back To Your Roots
I’ve had people tell me that there’s nothing wrong with them, they just enjoy using. But, not once, has the underlying issue eluded me. Through probing and digging, the issue always rears it’s ugly head. Ever noticed how beautifully happy and content and newborn baby is? We are always trying to get back to that blissful euphoria, so yes, you are self-medicating something.
Even Empty Space is Filled With Air
When you create a void, you must fill it with something. Particularly, something that holds more weight (value) than the thing you are letting go of. If you are “quitting” your drug of choice, you have to think about not just the amount of time you spent using, but the amount of time you spent thinking about it, chasing after it and everything that you did while using. All of this time (space) has to be filled with something else-something with more value.
It Hurts, But It’s Not That Bad
It’s absolutely no fun to live life addicted to something that you know is bad for you; however, if you’ve ever tried to quit that thing you are addicted to, you know, very well, how bad withdrawal can get. In order to finally be ready to let go of that addiction, your present circumstances MUST be worse than any perceived amount of withdrawal. For some people, it is the loss of their family. For others, it is the loss of their freedom. And for some, they don’t make it out alive because nothing is worse to them than the withdrawal.
When There’s No Problem, There’s No Problem
You don’t have a problem. Everyone around you has a problem. They are the ones who are cleaning up the messes, paying all the money, losing their belongings, staying up at night crying- not you. As long as those around you continue to enable you, you don’t have a problem. They do.
The Purpose of Life is a Life of Purpose
Without purpose, you have nothing. In nothingness, there’s an emptiness. Emptiness must be filled. You get high to feel good about yourself when you’re not doing anything to feel good about. When you are busy changing the world, this becomes your high.
Addiction is complex, but with all the right pieces in place, it is not complicated. There are trained professionals everywhere to help you navigate this process. Find one. Save yourself. You are loved. You are needed. You are wanted.